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Katie

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Drugs by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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Drugs

So many people hurt just to get that high my own body dying just to get by mind wonders quickly, like channels flipping... my body speeds up pace, my heart is slipping another day gone by, drugs to help me function I keep telling myself, tomorrow I'll stop... today will be the last... but i keep falling back into my past habits are hard to break I say I'll stop for her sake I won't make her death in vain but I want the drugs pumping through my veins I know my life is getting shorter I know the end is not far away... if I keep going at this pace I look into the mirror, not recognizing my own face I know I can't keep going I k

April 5th by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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April 5th

Watching the hours tick by slowly waiting for this day to end mind flooding with memories... nightmares of death the minutes go by too slow I wish this day would erase the pain forcing myself out of sleep the tears burn my eyes... and sting my empty face if only a smile could grace my lips if only the last 7 years were just a bad dream all the pain and agony would fade away the tears would dry up the cuts and wounds would heal my eyes shoot open, another annversery gone by just another day to everyone else but a day of death and rotting for me the pills start to kick in... another speed to keep me going adreneline fills my

black tears by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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black tears

black tears of pain running down my face I am unsure of everything knowing not what is real running blindly through the darkness of life heart ache, another dream to breaks my mind is racing my thoughts raging how can you see into my eyes look straight through me when I can not understand simple thought my eyes show emotions... I am unable to put into words as the tears fall the grave gets deeper 6 feet, almost there, then its all over help me hold on pull me back up make sure I keep going finish my destiny fullfill all my dreams watch over me don't cry when fall and love me while I'm here because forever isn't long

Save me by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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Save me

Save me from myself no mind no soul open my eyes to whats in store let me see let me feel all that there is in the world I look into the mirror asking myself "what is love" can I rise above can I feel all there is to feel can I handle the changing seasons of my life so many questions... and yet so few answers I have been afraid of changes... because each step I take is unsure If I climb the mountain... turn around... will I see the reflection i long to see? will I be the person I long to be?

Trading places by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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Trading places

I wish I could trade places I would die to bring her back... all the second chances all the times I was saved I would gladly give up any one of them... to bring my angel back to see her smiling face again to take away the tears everytime i ever tried... I failed I guess it because of her brilliance she was able to succed I would trade her places the world needed her more all the good she wouldv'e done now whispers in the wind I wish I could trade places... with her... bring her back to life see her one last time

What if? by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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What if?

What if I hadn't turned away that day would she still have left me What if I had only been a bit older, wiser I could have saved her life... I would still have her in mine What if I had walked away from the very start would I still be crying? would he still have hurt me if I would have been smarter? I could have saved my life... I could have stoped the pain What if i had caller her that day? would I still have a friend dying? would she have left me for a better place I could have helped her out... stopped the tragedy What if I wouldn't have made the mistakes that I have made? could I be able then to look into your eyes? with

cuaght between two worlds II by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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cuaght between two worlds II

Caught between two worlds, eight people locked in a cage Struggling to free themselves, stricken with rage Stuck in a box, forgotten for what seems like days Each one with their own plan, their own ways Escape is their only goal… Leaving with their spirits still whole Young girl, enraged and frightened Her whole body becomes tightened Sitting in a corner, gazing at the walls Feeling as though no one hears her calls Terrified of being alone Her voice begins to change tone A teenager, at an awkward age Depression seeps out and sends him into a daze His great big eyes, filled with hate… He feels like there is only one way out, one

Caught between two worlds... by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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Caught between two worlds...

Caught between two worlds, nine people locked in a cage Struggling to free themselves, stricken with rage Stuck in a box, forgotten for what seems like days Each one with their own plan, their own ways Escape is their only goal… Leaving with their spirits still whole Young girl, enraged and frightened Her whole body becomes tightened Sitting in a corner, gazing at the walls Feeling as though no one hears her calls Terrified of being alone Her voice begins to change tone A teenager, at an awkward age Depression seeps out and sends him into a daze His great big eyes, filled with hate… He feels like there is only one way out, one

Uniformity by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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Uniformity

Walking aimlessly yet so controlled A glimmer left of what was once so brilliant Pushed down in to the utopia built by fear All the same, no distinguishing traits We all seem identical Uniformity kills the spirit while dulling the mind Eyes once filled with life…now blackness overcomes Nothing left but the masked dreams in our heads Crying out for our individuality, stolen from us… replaced now by unity in misery Such radiant spirits which conformity has clouded Erased thoughts, must be fought for and won Can no longer subdue to a world all the same Hidden truth, blocked by their desires for conformity in our lives Bleak, gray

Surrounded by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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Surrounded

Surrounded by people... with questions and tears no one talks to me... just talks about me I lay awake in bed missing life before that day silent screams in my head YOU DIDN"T ASK ME YOU DON"T REALLY CARE as I bang on the walls of my prison constantly watched... makes me wish even more that I could leave this place not die...just go away away from the people talking speaking to eachother about my "problems" the screams start to get louder the shaking begins STOP WATCHING ME GET AWAY FROM ME I wish it would all just go away WHY DO I CARE WHY DO I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH no one asked me if I was okay just yelled and screame

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another shoulder by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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another shoulder

You did me wrong you made me love you you made me die a thousand times you crushed my heart I hoped to god I could die I loved you then... I love him now no more abuse please no more hurt only love from a heart more pure than yours please don't cry please don't die... or fall away I still want you there I still want your hugs I just now have... another shoulder to cry on

Remember the days by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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the end by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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the end

Reaching the end...no where to turn memories of what might have been run through my head holding that baby so close so tight I cry knowing that will never be I wish I could take it back the drugs the fights I wish I could hold my own in my arms I know it will never be again I wish it all could just end its like walking to the edge hoping you have the courage to jump pushing yourself over never to return end the pain end the misary memories of what might have been haunt me in my dreams holding a creation close in my arms knowing that I will have someone to love me i wish it would end all the pain that is going on I fee

A person by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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A person

Words can not describe the confusion that I feel your fake kind words repeat themselves over in my head You think you are doing good making me your friend You don't understand I don't want you near i hate you with all my heart the only thing worse than your sugar coated outside is the cold interior which I fear You walk around talking like you care but what is really going on inside is nothing even close You hurt those who care and lie to those that don't I wish you could see yourself i wish your inside could be revealed all the hate you have had for everyone and the jealousy that you feel I really don't hate you when it comes r

school by HoNeYbEe913, literature

Joshua by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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Joshua

The pain I see in your eyes drives me to the edge the constant fighting feeling like I am being pushed I hear your stories about your child hood I wish I could have been there to comfort you I know how much I care even though I don't know why and everynight you didn't know I stay up and cry It feels like your stabbing me, right in the heart I wish I could fix you baby and make you whole again I can't be with you I can't see you because the pain it causes I am with someone else now but you I will always love there will always be that place carved in my heart I know you are nearing the end it hurts to see you die I wish I could

another by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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another

I feel as if I am outside myself standing looking in seeing all my stupid mistakes when will it end I see the smart remarks that I know would hurt I wish I would have held my tounge I see how a simple word can start a war I wish I would have stopped I realize that everything is my fault I wish I would be gone If I wasn't here today or any other someone else would be here, another one who knew just what to say to make everyone smile someone to treat my friends better they would forget I was ever here in a while I think I will just go away never come back so everyone can mean it when they say... I love you

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Listen Katie your gorgeous by cudlpnk, literature

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Listen Katie your gorgeous

Milky Peach Skin, Soft as a baby's bum Wiping away my tears, Your beauty hides, the tortures life youve led all these years Pools of Mistakes Wisdom, Wonder Glistening in your eyes Turning heads, Looking past my damage, Uncovering the truth Breaking down the lies Gracious Flowing Long Dark Hair Wraps around ou loosley I wish i had your beauty Your magnivicence captivates me Long slender body, With enough bossom to spare Love handles - psshhh- There is nothing but perfection there Kindness and Security Tender warmth, For your guidance im yerning Artistic abilites, Wonderous talent, Katie Can't you see Your beaut

Mike an Katie ONLY by cudlpnk, literature

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Mike an Katie ONLY

Raging Fire, Soaring words Tell me stories Teach me, I need to learn Older Wiser, Path Twist & turns You come out, Of your little shell Broken boy, i see Climbing all over Taking care of me, Beautiful girl, I completley envy Unlocking doors, I forgot so long ago Say something simple The tears start to flow Inside im crying, Outside laughing Thank you For curing me In one drunken evening

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Katie baby by cudlpnk, literature

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Katie baby

Pool of blood, death to innocence Precious life, never given the chance to live, Holding a baby, for the first and last time, Experiencing a mother's worst nightmare Tears raging, emotions a stir Wild night, misscairage, not birth Years Of longing, Regret and Pain Drive you to measures, You once thought insane Pick up the knife, Lay down your life BEcause it isnt enough, With out your child by your side HEr blood stains your hands, You see it every day The blood of the child, you lost, gave away Cries that aren't there, Childs dreams that don't exist Haunting you in dreams, For a real baby you wish Wanting to be the mothe

Katharina by cudlpnk, literature

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Katharina

Hard Ice Blue Eyes, You wearing, trying to hide. Guess what? I see through I'll break the crystal Ice, hiding the warmth within Katie, so emotionally damaged, Outside and In, So beautiful, and graceful, Filled with majesty, adored by me. Hopeless and broken, I came to you stumbling, Grip loose, ready to let go, Reaching out a hand, You needed for your own, Risking yourself to save me, some one unknown Walking with that power, that captivating awe, I wonder, how through it all you stayed so strong I know i oculdnt do it, I know I couldnt be Half the woman you are Katie, I love you toots- and that means a lot coming from me

All Grown Up by cudlpnk, literature

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All Grown Up

Twirling in a too-too Pink and sparkly tights, Little girl with hair ribbons, Ballerina dreams tonight... Lazers beam through galactic rings Goggles to see through things Boxes become space ships Young child plays aliens... Cowboy hats and old boots, Guns drawn from holsters, POinted at the roof Yee-haw as he rides his horse Little boy pretends to be a cowboy... Carrying a doll, She is a real mommy, Feeding it and kissing it, Hoping thats how her future will be... Too big dresses Mom's lip stick, Pretty makeup, Large high heels, Big sis'clothes Pretending thats who she is... Little Kids Like to Pretend Well Im all gro

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Remember the days by HoNeYbEe913, literature

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Current Residence: my personal version of hell
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Personal Quote: If all you do in life is look at what you could have done better...where are you headed?

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hmmm I like a variaty but love pat conroy

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HoNeYbEe913

Jun 25, 2007

Wow its 2007

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I haven't been on here in years...literally...It surprises me that I actually got comments on my work while I was gone...I was on here last in 2005 I think oh well I am back for a bit at least to look for something to inspire me, I haven't written for anything other than classes in years, I haven't had the time, now I have to write something for my child psyc class, and it can be what I want and on what I want so  I am stuck, unable to pull the usual bullshit out of my ass to please a teacher because there are no standards no outline to follow and I haven't had creative freedom in a long time, and no time to write for myself. hmm I am stuck

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HoNeYbEe913

Dec 4, 2004

life....

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life kinda sucks right now, I am afraid I am loosing on of my best friends because of some stupid bullshit drama, I hate school I am so sick, I think with the flu. My boyfriend loves me, he brought me mcdonalds and cigs because I am stuck at home alone and havn't eaten in a couple days becasue ive been sick, I saw my friend jen tonight, I haven't seen her in forever like three years she looks different but still the same, it makes me long for the days when shit was simple, and I never had to use my brain cells. god my head hurts i gotta go to sleep

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HoNeYbEe913

Aug 27, 2004

school...

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school is starting which is completely depressing because I am not ready to end this summer yet...and I am not ready to go back and see everyone I have avoided seeing speaking to or thinking about all summer...I have quit everything so going crazy but really dreading school and missing my brother, anyway I have to go to orientation tomorrow which I find utterly pointless...so much has happened this summer like nearly everyone I know is having kids SERIOUSLY, I will be godmother to a billion kids anyway I am so tired of cleaning, my house is for sale and i am stuck picking up everyday before it is shown, I don't want to go back to school im no

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<3 love you

thanks for the fave!!!

cudlpnk

Apr 28, 2004

CHELSEA LOVES YOU!!!!!

We get to schedule today!! Exciting eh?
Loves,
Your BEST friend.

HoNeYbEe913

Apr 27, 2004

Hah. Its chelsea. I hacked on to your account and changed your icon. Dont like it? Sue ME.

~babycakes

beglebite

Jan 9, 2004

hey katie, i only have one poem up here, and it sucks, but o well. bet u didnt know i wrote it, most of my stuff isnt on here, cuz its too personal to show

Merry Christmas!!